The Story Behind Our Last Goodbye

So here's how Our Last Goodbye actually came together. The funny thing is, it started years before it ever had any words.

It began as just an instrumental

By this point I was in my early thirties and in a relationship. I was taking guitar lessons because I really wanted to get good at it, and on the side I'd been messing around with music production in Logic Pro. I taught myself the whole thing off YouTube. Pulling samples, playing the keyboard, just figuring it out as I went. I'd been playing piano and improvising for decades at that point, so the music part came pretty natural to me. The production side was the new piece I was learning.

For some reason I started out making lofi. It just felt really cool to me back then, and honestly I wasn't a great singer yet, so chill instrumental stuff felt like the right place to start. The first version of Our Last Goodbye was one of those. No words, no vocals, just a little guitar, some piano, and a few beats. I wasn't good at producing yet, so I kind of just put it together and left it sitting there.

Then the relationship ended

After the breakup, I kept thinking about that song. I didn't want it to just sit on my hard drive doing nothing. So I went and found a music production mentor, someone who actually went to school for this and had been teaching for years, and I hired him to help me turn it into something real.

Our Last Goodbye ended up being the second song I ever released. We took that quiet little instrumental and built it into an actual song, and I finally put words to it. If you listen close, the lyrics are about that relationship. The lies, the stuff I didn't see coming, all the things that come with a toxic relationship. It's basically me working through what I went through.

What it taught me

The biggest thing I took from this one is that you can take something painful, something heavy and full of all these negative emotions, and turn it into a song that people actually relate to. That instrumental got made in one chapter of my life, and it became this whole other thing in the next one. Honestly that's kind of the whole point of what I do now.

Thanks for reading. If this one hit for you, go give it a listen over on the Music page.